Just yesterday, I received the greatest news I had prayed for the past few months. I am now an R.N. Today however, I am overcome with sadness so extreme that I find it hard to breathe.
Now that I made it through, the question that looms ahead is "what's next?". I realize that indeed nothing is permanent in this life. I know that with this good news, painful decisions and goodbyes had to be made.
Literally, I don't know where to start. I don't know what to do next. I am afraid. I don't want to go alone. I need my friends. I don't want to say goodbye to them. I want that wherever I will go for work I'd be close to them. I envy them. They are so strong and focused. They know what they want and how they'll get it.
God, I feel so low right now. I want to break down and cry this one out, but I can't.